I did read on another thread that you stopped your meds with the intentions of making yourself feel bad again. Is this something you have done before? Your T does sound really frustrated with you. It's hard to help people when we are actively sabotaging our own well-being. However, your therapist should be able to set aside her frustrations to help you find a better plan -- one that self-destruction isn't part of.

Perhaps you need to contact your pdoc and let him/her know you have stopped taking your medication. Is your pdoc any better at dealing with this?

Are you in, or have you been through, a DBT program?