(((Candy))) sorry you are feeling so poorly, inspite of all the good coming your way. Major depression is like that... it isn't a fleeting thing, but ever present, even when you can "feel up" from time to time. As for you meds, if you have been on it for a while and it hasn't been increased in dose, you should ask your doc about doing so. Try and get through the holidays.. it sounds like your workplace had a "wake up call" with you.