It would be so easy to just go right down stairs and take some extra sedatives and never wake up.....nice way to go and not too messy like my nightmares have been...........sleep sounds so good right now. Alas, once again I had to make a promise not to and I cannot let her down...even though someone else in my head is telling me otherwise.

I have to stay strong.....get through another day.....one day at a time.....things aren't always so bleak right? GOD I HOPE SO!!!