Yeah, I get it. I think it gets tricky when the feel good stuff comes at a high physical price. I used to be a maniac about fitness and it felt awesome. Now I'm more easy going, but I don't get the highs. It's a trade off for sure. I would just keep thinking about it, I guess. I think it's maybe more worth considering if any of it is feeling good from the pain or feeling good from being healthy. Not sure if that makes sense. I don't think any of this is clear or easy to sort out.