I'm sorry you are having such a tough time. It's hard to feel lonely and to feel that you are the one always reaching out. I'm sorry you feel uncared for. I feel that way myself sometimes. It is very painful. We care for you on this forum and encourage you to post as often as you need. You'll find a lot of support here. I encourage you to keep reaching out to others. Does it matter who reached out first as long as you have that contact? Are you close enough to these people to talk to them about these feelings?

I had to go through a lot of therapists to find one worth her weight in gold. The right one can be a tremendous help. I encourage you to keep looking until you find the right one. Best wishes. Thinking of you....