Well, I don't get why someone would openly give your their phone number, then moan about you calling them. Were they tipsy at the time? Some people just aren't that nice, but it hardly makes sense for a person to treat anybody like that who is supposed to be a friend. Instead of using Facebook, could you not just install some kind of messaging app?

I feel like I've been the victim of social rejection all my life. I'm not sure why it happens, but some people I liked initially when I first met them later betrayed me. Namely, my ex-girlfriend and my support workers, but there are others who turned against me too. Granted, some of them were more like associates than my real friends, but what does it really matter? They were still people I was fond of, who proceeded to ruin my life. Honestly, it still feels strange to me how a little misunderstanding can bring out the worst in people.

I'll admit that I'm not the most handsome guy in the world. I also cannot help having fixed interests either, but I'm still a people person. Lots of autistic people can be smart, but at the expense of having a not so ordinary social life. The doctors didn't diagnose me with PDD-NOS until I was 21. I've had countless issues with people on the Internet as well, and I think arguing with them has took years off my life, as my anxiety has gotten so chronic. Some people are inclined to think I play on my autism to get off with doing bad things, when I've only reacted to being mistreated. One guy on Facebook who badmouthed me years ago actually said that people with PDD-NOS should not receive benefits, as it's not true autism. Such jive talk.

I've slowly began to realize that intelligence counts for nothing anymore. You could be a genius, but nobody cares. They probably view you as being weird, unless they are exploiting your skills. There are people out there who would appreciate your knowledge, but it's like trying to separate the chaff from the wheat.

Sometimes, I also think that some people are only nice to you because they've yet to hear all these stories about you through the grapevine. Sara (my Spanish key worker) turned against me partly because of crap spread by this guy. The same guy who said I didn't deserve my benefits. It's sad, but if some group of idiots go about saying you're not a good person and the people in your circle decide to buy into it, it's almost like a numbers game where people won't want to side with the guy with a bad track record as opposed to everyone hating on the guy with a so-called bad track record. Hence the black balling continues.

Yes, there are people who do act like sheep, and think being seen with a person that nobody else likes will harm their precious rep, or something. So essentially, Sara is just one of the sheep.