Oh yes, Sine Language, loneliness is not unknown to me. Sorry to hear that you are suffering so much. Sometimes one might wonder if depression "smells" from far away, so that people withdraw before they have got to know us.

Can it help you a bit to think that we are many who feel it this way , - that we are in the same boat mentally? What are your interests? Is there an interest that you can develop, go to a course or something? It is very, very important to not sit inside and fall deeper and deeper into depression. Can you go swimming, bicycling, find some kittens to care about or other?

I agree with Jennifer, don't stop looking for the right psychologist for you and please give him/her a chance before you cut the contact.