I am so manic and it is the mean kind-things come out of my mouth that hurt before I have a chance to think. Also, I feel like I am bouncing everywhere.

Unfortunately the behaviors are noticed, but I won't go into that.

I just added Latuda to my drugs, switching out a couple of ad's. I am at 80 mg now. I have suffered the regular side effects, but I can't find mania anywhere in my research.

I don't really want to go to the hospital, but for the first time in long time, I am so totally miserable I am considering it. I am not considering harming myself, I just feel so miserable with pressure on the inside, plus I am not a good mother or wife now. I can't even imagine what I am acting like as a teacher.

My pdoc isn't available. She is with her sick daughter. My therapist pretty much told me I was horrible last week, not in reference to the mania but to something I said to a coworker.

Help! I need to figure out a way for someone to like me again!

I am cutting out the Latuda. I don't have a doctor now so I'm prescribing it myself.

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