I wish that I had Dr. Kavorkian to help put me to sleep. I have wished that for about twenty years. I just cannot get out of the nightmare: constant emotional pain, fear, paranoia, loneliness, and because of all these emotions, suicidal emotions.

I talked to Dr. Delgado recently. He was my psychiatrist for ten years here in Lake City. He would not talk to me about dissociative disorders nor would any of the staff. I told him that Dr. Carl Nickeson in Orlando had given me a dissociative disorder (not otherwise specified) diagnosis, a disorder of extreme and chronic stress diagnosis, a Borderline Personality Disorder diagnosis and alcoholism in 2005 before I moved up to Lake City. Maybe he will change his diagnosis of me but I doubt it.

Sorry if this triggers anyone.