I love you feelings mixed with angry feelings, with protect feelings. I want monday to come so we can talk about your vacation. I'm mad at you about the vacation. I don't want you to go. Tell me again the lines:
- you might not come back
- you want to come back
- something really bad would have to happen to keep you from coming back
- you might not think of me while you are gone
- you won't forget me (forget who I am)
- once back you'll look forward to seeing me

Can you add - if something really bad happens, if possible, you'll try to contact me? Would that be too much?

Don't die, don't get hurt, don't anything happen to your family; I still need you. I don't want you to get sick either. I know it is selfish, I feel bad about that, okay. Just come back please, I don't want to lose you yet.