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Old May 21, 2017, 07:47 AM
20oney 20oney is offline
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Originally Posted by Xynesthesia View Post
I do tend to feel more satisfied when I stay on track and dive more deeply into it, yes. Same in my everyday life, I like to be focused when I am tackling problems and projects, and getting into all sorts of distractions tends to be one of my dominant avoidance strategies and sign of stress. I am not saying at all that this should be true for everyone, I think it's best to try and figure out why you feel unsatisfied.

Yes, I usually have less desire to email after sessions that I feel satisfying, but it's not a guarantee that it remains that way during the entire week... a lot of it is related to my mood fluctuations and obsessive tendencies that come and go. I'm no longer in regular therapy, just see Ts occasionally, and I find it's actually more effective this way because I go when I have something specific to address and stick with the topic, then I follow up myself in everyday life. Still have the urge to email the Ts every now and then but nothing even close to when I was going weekly. When I go regularly, I feel that it takes up way too much of my thoughts and mental energy and often becomes depleting rather than enriching. I got easily trapped in obsessive/addictive cycles that I know I am prone to by default, so this manifesting in therapy was really predictable for me.
Yeah ok, makes sense. I've considered cutting back on my sessions a bit. But, as you have sort of said there, I feel like I depend on it a fair bit, and maybe it does take over my thoughts more than it should. But I have found that when I have to wait 4 weeks, i have a higher tendency for emailing.. But in saying that, at the moment, I don't think it would make a difference, I just want it all solved yesterday so I can move on with my like (Yeah, right...)

Some days, I find after therapy, I am exhausted, some days I have endless thoughts on what I should have said, or spoken about.. Some days therapy opens my mind up to new thoughts and memories.. Regardless of how it has ended, it has never been a positive and I have always felt the desire to email.
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