I am avoidant and I day dream as well. I have for a long time. I find my day dreams better than reality and I can replay them over and over again. My fantasies are controllable by me so I can have the degree of control. In real life that goes out the window. I also feel I am avoidant because I have to be. There are things about me... that just puts negative energy my way. I don't think I am necessarily ugly or ostracized but there is something about me that has always brought out the worst in people. People just want to hurt me. Not all.. but about 30%. And no one wants to protect me.
I have also chosen to isolate in almost everything. I have to work but.. I just try to stay in my office.
I would also be hesitant to share my daydreams with a therapist. Likely they wouldn't understand. My day dreams are not about me. Usually I have 4 or 5 stories like tv shows that didn't go in the direction I wanted and my day dreams are that with me inserted as a character. It is kind of hard to imagine ME in a false situation.
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