(((((((((((((((( manda )))))))))))))))
Sweety I'm so sorry you are hurting like this. Grief is a process that everyone works through in their own time, in their own way. At times it can feel like we can't go on without that individual in our lives and at other times we work through the healing process.
Most important through all of this is that you have patience with yourself. Healing is possible when you allow time for it.
I'm always willing to listen if you feel you want to talk. I'm just a pm away.

sabby