Tryin, I remember when I was where you are. I didn't start out with scratching, but that's irrelevant. Point is that I started. And I wish I had walked away from SI after that first time. I really, really do. It just feeds into the self-hate. I builds on itself. It causes WAY more problems than it solves. Please believe me on that. PLEASE get yourself some professional help and do everything you can not to let anything more happen.

You can post here and tell us if you are worried about doing it again. Sometimes we worry that we shouldn't post here unless we have SI'd, but everyone here would agree that you can post here for support and we would LOVE to help you NOT GO DOWN THIS ROAD.

If you're interested, I also have built a website with some thoughts that might help you out. I'm not just trying to push my website, though, so if you're not interested, certainly do not feel obligated to check it out. I just thought maybe some of the things I have learned in my healing might help you.

www.freewebs.com/thecocoon_sipages

Good luck to you! I am hoping so much for you that I can't even express it.

*safe hugs* if you want them
Angela