[QUOTE=Wild Coyote;5658795]A transition, maybe that's it? I hope so! For both of us.
I have a good day and then 3-4 not-so-good days.
My pdoc now has me starting Wellbutrin at 4 a.m., with 2 more doses throughout the day. Hitting the Wellbutrin and Adderall all day long.
The Latuda, citalopram and klonopin at night. Are we supposed to keep pumping meds looking for a good response? It seems odd, very unnatural.
I don't know what else to do.

Today, I got dressed, ate meals, wrote on PC. That's all.
I hope tomorrow is a better day, as well.

(((((( Jennifer )))))) :throb

You're right. My depression follows the same pattern yours does. I think the depression is there underneath the transition pain. I guess I look for reasons to explain it as if that will mean someday it will go away forever. I think I mentioned that when it's been the hardest, I've fought to stay alive for my daughter and to pour all my love into her. She's been my purpose. I'm a little lost right now and in pain.
I thought that was causing my depression.

I need to accept facts. I take a cocktail of medication as well and we keep trying new things. It is odd and unnatural but that's all I know to do as well. My hope is that someday something will come along soon medication wise to stop all this. I hope that for you as well. I hope you have a better day tomorrow. Best wishes....