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Old May 22, 2017, 12:48 AM
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I put maybe... I am very manipulative by nature. I am always, usually not consciously, manipulating people with the things I say (or don't say) in order to manipulate how they view me or to make them think a certain thing about me. I don't really know why I do it, and I don't know how to stop. It's not malicious, but it's untruthful...
With my old T, I manipulated her to make her think that I had bipolar disorder. I don't, but I wanted to be diagnosed with it because to me it was preferable to tell my parents that over my actual diagnosis of major depression (don't ask me why).
With my current T, I try to be more honest, but I can feel myself holding back certain things because I don't want to change the image she has of me which I have carefully manipulated in her mind.
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