I'm sorry you're having such a hard time Elevatedsoul. If you really do feel in danger, please go to the hospital. There's nothing anyone here on PC can do for you.

When you feel a little safer and want to keep interacting with the community here on PC, I think some of your problems might get more answers in the other forums such as depression, psychotherapy and relationships, and communication. I think everyone here feels for you but might not feel they're able to reply and help because a lot of your questions are less to do with dissociative disorders.