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Originally Posted by neodk
My wife always make me leery about admitting myself, like it will be a black mark on my permanent record. I think with the diagnosis of bipolar on my medical records it cannot get much worse, but she worked in the medical field for awhile and believes she knows what the consequences will be.
If I do IP, my fear is she will see this as quitting. I always quit when things are too tough. She pushes me to work through things. In theory that's not a bad thing. But I don't have anyone advocating for me other than myself, and when I tend to not be clear on my thoughts, feelings and concerns it makes fighting for what I need difficult.
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Going IP is not quitting. It's purpose is to get more help to have a better life. It's the opposite of quitting.
If you already have "bipolar" on your medical records, an IP admission won't make much difference. The biggest challenge might be arranging this with work and feeling okay about taking time for yourself, as you are very goal-oriented.
As for advocates, ideally, your wife would be advocating for you. She'd encourage you to tell her more about what's going on for you and would help you to clarify, etc. For some reason, that's not happening and I strongly encourage couples counseling at some point, after you decide if you'll benefit from IP or not.
IP isn't always the best move for everyone. Yet, if you're feeling depleted and full of despair and/or are concerned about hurting yourself or someone else, it's a great option.
Please stay safe.
WC