Thanks, almedafan. Maybe I need someone just like you with your sword by my side.

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'I'm concerned about you, you seem to angry all the time, do we need to take a break so you can pull your head out of your azz'?

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post">Ha, ha, I love that! Maybe I will write it on my hand for easy reference. I think part of the problem now is that I am holding it against this guy that he has been a jerk in the past. I need to be able to give him another chance, as he is very important to the divorce proceedings. Start with a clean slate, not be defensive, etc. That is hard for me to do right now. I am still annoyed as hell at him and don't trust him, but I have to go to the meeting with an open mind and listen to what he has to say without letting my personal feelings get in the way. Very hard. I am reading the book, The Four Agreements, right now for inspiration. Anyone read that?

I did hear back yesterday afternoon from my T, and my L, both by email within a few minutes of each other. I had asked both of their advice by email about a day and a half earlier and I was glad to at last get their recommendations. I am supposed to respond to them, but haven't. I feel no rush. As long as they get my answers before the Monday meeting, it should be fine.

Thanks again, everyone. Courage is what I need.