So I'm grasping at straws here but it seems possible that my issues might be better explained under a diagnosis of bipolar than what I usually get: PTSD, Depression, OCD. I'm hoping you all can offer your insights.

Here's the relevant concerns both pro and con for my suspicions:

- My current diagnosis doesn't seem to completely explain what I go through

- I have extreme highs and lows. Sometimes I am filled with energy, am extremely positive, very creative, optimistic, have excited daydreams, work fast, think quickly, extremely outgoing, euphoric, etc. Then other times I'm severely depressed, am pessimistic about my prospects, tend to withdraw, have suicidal ideation, and have lots of anxiety.

- Regardless of a high or low state, I'm always interested in sex. However a high state does up my appetite for it.

- When I'm in a high state I love it and really, I want to be like that all the time.

- My highs and lows sometimes cycle VERY quickly. As I understand it, bipolar features highs or lows that last weeks. That's not me. I can change day by day and sometimes within the SAME day. On top of the world one moment, crashing the next.

- My highs don't feature delusions. I don't break with reality. I might be exceedingly positive or negative but both states are connected to reality. For example, I am a screenwriter and during my highs I'm convinced I'm about to get my big break. During my lows, I'm a hack and should just give it up.

- When I'm feeling "neutral" I still have a lot of background anxiety.

- I don't have a lot of black and white thinking and I'm not disorganized.

- I manage to live a pretty functional life despite all my problems.

So what do you guys think? As I've indicated, I'm not convinced of anything at this point. I'm just fishing.

Any input is great and if you need more info or clarification to offer an opinion, just ask.

And don't worry, I know most of you aren't doctors.

Cyran0