The big problem at the moment is e-mail....I e-mail her out of session but don't always get a reply unless I keep naggingg at her ( what I consider nagging ) and she replies briefly telling me im gonig to make it.......I dont want to nag nor do I mean to...I just want words of wisdom........often in my e-mails I ask questions...questions that go unanswered..........

I wake up in the morning and check my e-mail rarely to find her reply....I cry saying she hates me...I cry saying I'm not important..she has said once before that she can't always reply.....yet....yet I love my T....why why why???? What do I expect my T to do...waht do I want out of therapy? I dont want to stop seeing my T I LOVE her...she's my 4th T and ...and well...She's my favorite.....plz help

Since my therapy began in July with this Therapist I have been more open with my emotions with her then ever before with any other therapist or person on earth. Despite that I have also become so attached that I have hurt myself as well as set my therapist up for failure.

One major problem is my emotions for my T, first it was sexual, she's 45 I 17, despite the age gap I pursued those feelings into a misery ....it hurt me to feel that way for her....

Now those feelings are passing I have found she is a mother to me, a mother that everyone dreams of, a mother you truley love. But this hurts too...

Every session I put expectations for my T up in my head, I make them up like a movie script then when my T fails at saying a part correctly I become upset and cry or get angry...we ( my T and I have spoke about this) She says its setting her up for failure.....and it is....

The biggest problem in therapy is our trust...I completely trust her but how far should this trust go? a Dozen or so Times in therapy since July she has interupted or been interupted by phone calls, someone at the door, etc...this has become a burden...a burden of anger towards her...it has now turned into sadness...At first I said she shouldnt interupt therapy for something but I have to realize she is human and unlike my other past T's i can be open with her...so open that I can tell her this bothers me....

Please Do not flame my T...dont make me sad...I just dont know waht to do......I have however come to the conclusion that she isn't perfect and that I can't expect a miracle out of my T only a miracle from therapy itself.....Despite the phone calls, she has apologized, she lets me e-mail her, and she allows me to be free in therapy.....

The big problem at the moment is e-mail....I e-mail her out of session but don't always get a reply unless I keep naggingg at her ( what I consider nagging ) and she replies briefly telling me im gonig to make it.......I dont want to nag nor do I mean to...I just want words of wisdom........often in my e-mails I ask questions...questions that go unanswered..........

I wake up in the morning and check my e-mail rarely to find her reply....I cry saying she hates me...I cry saying I'm not important....yet I love my T....why why why???? What do I expect my T to do...waht do I want out of therapy? I dont want to stop seeing my T I LOVE her...she's my 4th T and ...and well...She's my favorite.....plz help