your going to hate this ... and this is my opinon only ... and this is very common for women ... I believe your "seeing" your hubby as a father figure ... in your subconscience mind whatever you would be uncomfortable having your father know your doing , becomes uncomfortable with hubby ... search your inner most thoughts and see if this true ... I have no idea if true how to approach this .. but maybe just thinging about it will help ... I wish you peace .. glad to pm (private message) anytime ... Tigger ..