I've been struggling lately a lot at my appts with my therapist and pdoc. I've been very depressed, and my meds are being adjusted.

At each appt, my therapist and pdoc ask if I'm suicidal, and I say no. But the answer is yes. I think of it constantly but I am not actively planning anything.

I'm afraid to admit the truth because I'm afraid of what could happen. Also saying yes in some way makes it too real.

Any advice?