T,

I don't matter enough for you to fix the longstanding scheduling issues that's been going on for ten months or more.

What I want to talk about, and tried so hard to message you between sessions...it didn't matter. You still wanted us to talk about what you wanted me to talk about. I was so calm and so adult, and you didn't even notice me blink back tears. You say you want to see the real me and not the good me...but you insisted I be good by ending "therapy obstacles" like me reading up therapeutic methods, exercises and techniques.

I matter so, so, little to you. The patient before me gets to see you in three weeks. I overheard them and the counter staff. Clearly, not EVERY patient sees you once a month, unlike what you said.