Sorry, but I think you are silly not to keep your appt next week. Things have taken a turn, you have not what exactly, but that is ok. I just can hardly believe that his having learned more about you by reading your posts has been anything but positive for you in the final outcome.

I have a very good friend who is a psycho therapist. She is not a miracle worker. She tried very hard. She is just a plain, ordinary human in the real world. She sometimes makes mistakes. She is very professional and will struggle through whatever difficulties come up in a client/therapist relationship. Give your T a chance. If he has been good for you so far, then you should expect the benefits will continue.