I want everyone to stop telling me that I am killing myself with this. I want everyone to stop talking to me about it, telling me what I NEED to do.

My doctor said, "Your wasting away on us." I said, "Don't you get it, that's what I want to do."

So okay, I am going to die. Okay, I am starving myself. Threaten all they want to..... I am not going to any damn hospital so THEY CAN DECIDE WHAT I WANT. Don't they get it????????????

So what....I am sick.....so damn what.

They told me if I lose more weight and look like "death warmed over", I am gone. They will send me away. Great, more people to control me....more people to take over. I don't know what's going on here. I had really tried to change this, attempted to get well. I just am angry and don't get why. Is it the holidays, my due date....what is it. What triggered this? I feel like I want this ED to kill me------or me to let this kill me. What happened here?? I just don't know.

Justy