I am sorry you are having such a hard time. You sound like you are still depressed. I hope that you are continuing with treatment for your depression/grief. You might want to find out if there is a grief support group in your area. I notice you said that you were wondering if your mom could take your children. Would she be able to take them for a couple hours here and there to babysit to give you a break? Would your 3 year old be eligible for head start (or early head start, I can't remember the age break?) While their school year is probably wrapping up for the year right now, if you are low income you could look into it for the fall to give you a couple hours a day where both children are out of the house and time to focus on yourself. Remember that you need to take care of yourself so that you can support your kids. You are doing good reaching out for help.