I have always been socially awkward. But I wasn't like this. I was socializing even if I made mistakes and felt awkward. But since few years ago, I have isolated myself socially. Something went terribly wrong. Now I feel I am in a deep hole, so deep that I cannot climb up. Not just that, but I feel I fall deeper and deeper as the days pass. Now I am in a point where I think nothing and no one can help me. I am already socially isolated. I barely talk to anyone. I don't have interest in anything. I have no motivation to search and get a job. I do nothing but passing the time, literally speaking. In other words, I have no interest to live. But I afraid death. I am stuck surviving. What a life!!!