Hang in there, you're going through the process. It's okay.

You're working on all this with T and it will take time.

The unanswered questions in the email are something to think about. I think asking questions is your way of keeping you connected in your emails and trying to control (said with a smile, as we ALL do forms of this) whether she replies or not. The question asked, in your mind, means a reply for certain. In truth, a question is up to her to answer or not.. that is, the question is about you; answering it is about her.

You're doing great, Moonkin. Keep up the good work and when things come up, as hard as they are to deal with try to see them as things to look closer at too and see what else is there.