Your concerns certainly may be well-founded.
I personally have no experience with anti-depressants' effects, but in my research of my own illness(es), I did find that a professor of psychiatry at Yale School of Medicine cited studies that showed one in twelve inpatient psychiatric patients experienced antidepressant-induced psychosis or mania--when said patient had a family history of bipolar or psychosis. (The article went on to include stimulants and sleep medications as possible culprits, as well.) Perhaps a similar article/study compelled you to be wary of an incorrect diagnosis and subsequent medication.
With symptoms as severe as you've described, perhaps there is an urgency to "do something--even if it's wrong." In any event, being one's own advocate is difficult when symptoms rage. Where does it leave us when even the experts admit the MH field is in its infancy?
You are in my thoughts that whatever is ultimately decided will leave you with a sense of acceptance and with therapies (meds and/or otherwise) that give the greatest symptom relief.
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