Welcome to PC. You'll find lots of support here. I'm sorry you've had such a tough time lately. You're not alone. I've been through that and am still recovering from it and I understand down to the stomach problems. I'm always on the board multiple times a day so I would be happy to be a support for you but I think you're probably looking for someone closer to your age and life experience for reciprocity. My depression has shown itself to be stubbornly recurrent so I go through stable periods but I'm never fully recovered. You could find a reciprocal support and also find lots of support on this board by creating threads and making a daily post(s).

What self-help books are you reading? I hope you get lots of posts. I'm here if you want to talk or to PM me.