youOme,

Bless your heart. I say this because I remember living with parents who cared little if anything for me. Mother, after having promised to pay for my housing at Purdue, didn't pay a dime. It wasn't until I went to sign up for classes at an Indiana University satellite location that I found out that my records were encumbered for $1500 (showing my age). My father actually co-signed a loan (a feat in itself) so that I could start school part-time while I worked full time. I had $7/week left over for gas to put into my car and entertainment.

I can certainly understand how you feel. As far as Karma, there are varying thoughts about it. Today, many believe that Karma doesn't wait until a future life for karmic payback. Many schools of thought believe that karmic payback comes back to us in this lifetime and at a multiplication of 10x to 100x or more depending.

It seems to me that you are the one that is the true winner. You are walking the straight and narrow, just like I did and can say that all turned out well for me. I just kept focused on what I wanted and worked until I got it. I ate Campbell's Soups and the other "cheap" food as I had no money to buy better and was scraping.

I know I can not guarantee that this will be your story, but I hope that it will.

Feel free to PM me to vent, chat, or whatever. I am a good listener and am all ears. Then too, everyone needs a shoulder to lean on at times, I offer mine to you.

Thinking of You,
Peacemaker