No T, but talked with pdoc yesterday. Raising Trileptal due to being mixed a couple weeks ago. Refused some other meds because they all either need blood work, or are sedating, or make you fat. I see him again in less than 2 weeks. Pretty soon I will not be able to see him because I've burned through all my money. Did not plan on getting sick like this. It doesn't matter, I cannot think straight to make decisions. I just need to suck it up and quit being a baby. I am safe enough to be alone.