Dear T,

I don't know if I will bring this up or not, because I do not know if it is important or not, but I really didn't know how to reply to your text.

I wanted to write 'lol, boo indeed! Not to worry, I look forward to it regardless. Thank you'.

Thing is, that seems too friendly and I don't want to go there with you. Well, I guess on one hand I really, really do want to go there with you. Normal interaction. Relaxed. Free flowing. But it scares me, because it takes me one step closer to something that cannot be, despite the free flowing being on our radar as something that would be good for me in general.

I got scared, I guess, so I just went with the formal response instead. I hope you didn't think I was being rude. Just confused.