Twilight, I do the same thing. I think it's because I'm not used to admitting I need help and support - I'm used to pretending (especially for my kids) that everything's ok. Also I live in a small town - if I confide in friends just how unwell my husband is, his chances of getting another job will be minimal. I can't tell anyone he's bipolar, except for my friends and vital support group here. Thank you to those brave enough to share your stories - you don't know what a difference you make.