I must be missing something here. My daughter has more male friends then female and they're all just friends. I get that you have self esteem problems (I'm really sorry there...I do as well). You are as good as anybody you want to be friends or lovers with. I guess what I'm not getting is how the sex drive comes into it. Have you been caught cheating? Have you had strong friendships that your sex drive ruined? I really want to understand and support you so you don't feel alone.