I'm very sorry you've had so much loss in your life. All so young too.

My college entry essay was on family. Since my family is three people--me, brother and mother--family to me is what I make it to mean.

My family consists of people who've known me since birth, older wiser friends who are there through thick and thin, the people who have taken me in and sheltered me when I was in the storms of depression, the people I celebrate yearly traditions with and sometimes that means new people are taken into the fold of what I consider family.

You might be surprised at the people who might already consider you part of their families. (((((((silver)))))) sorry you're lonely. you express yourself very well here.......I only wish I could write about the grief in my life with such stark truth. I hope that if you are able to journal you do........you've written out some important stuff here.