Dear MC,
I feel kind of bad about talking about you in T today. It's funny how I can both love and feel confused that you're fuzzy on boundaries. It's like when you bend them for me it makes me feel special...(yeah, I know, all of your clients are special). But then I'm scared that at some point randomly you'll decide to lock them down. I was worried about that with session times, but that lasted about, what, a week? And then you were back to going over.

But I don't want to lose e-mail or phone calls. I suppose because you were basically encouraging me to e-mail this week, I don't need to worry about that. But I'm just afraid you'll suddenly realize that maybe you shouldn't be exchanging e-mails or be on 25-minute phone calls with one half of a couple that you're counseling. And then you'll just cut me off, cold turkey. I want to get there myself. I wonder if the fact that I'm not sure what to tell you in an e-mail right now is a sign I'm headed there?

Of course, I'll probably just send you an e-mail saying "I don't know what to tell you in an e-mail."

I know you're just trying your best to help all your clients however they need it. I mean, maybe you have some paternal counter-transference for me, like you want to take care of and protect me. But I think it all stems from your desire--your need, really--to help people. And you've helped me more than you've hurt me. It's just confusing sometimes...

Love you,
LT