That sounds scary and I'm sorry you're having to deal with this. Parental relationships are always complicated and I don't feel comfortable getting to deep into it because I don't know what others have really been through. However, your feelings are valid and it's unfortunate that you received this reaction from your mother. I don't have any great advice, but I know you have a lot on your plate right now. You have my love and support and I hope you feel well soon. ((((Raven))))