Thanks Bukowski. Doctors can be jerks sometimes, yes. I've had more than my fair share sadly. I'm learning to stand up for myself though, but it's hard. I really shouldn't have to.

Regarding mindfulness, I've not learned it. I read something about it long ago about being in the moment but when my issues flair, all the sights I see and sounds I hear are traumatizing and so being in the moment is not good for me. I might be understanding the practice and perhaps it's something I can consider. My docs have said that CBT is probably what would be most useful for my issues and they are setting up a program that I will hopefully be able to attend soon. I also got a CBT class on Groupon I'm working on. They talk about mindfulness in this class so I will soon see if it can help. Thanks for the suggestion and for your supportive words. (((Hugs)))