My ability to get better doesn't have to do with my illness, but who i am as a person. I feel as though a beast has been living inside of me, waiting for the ideal time to come out. Since none of my life goals are materializing, he is coming out prematurely.

In regards to BP, i think the illness tends to progress. Luckily, i take my medication. Although it leaves me so flat that at times i "forget" them if only to remember what it is like to feel.