Well.... tonight's visit was not good. I was trying to buffer myself, but the little one wanted to love on her. That over road the buffering. She looks for the good always.

A friend of my moms came and is going to be with her tonight. I just can't stay and listen to the ugly things my mom is saying right now. Her friend is not so emotionally knowledgeable or wounded.

I walked in and my brother and my mom's friend were in the ICU unit. I walked over to and told her that I loved her. No response.

My brother told my mom that her friend would be with her tonight so he could get some sleep. She tries to talk behind the oxygen mask and we can't understand her. He gives her a pen and she writes, "If you are standing here waiting for me to die just get a sledge hammer."

The vacuum happened and I wasn't there any more. I don't have words.