so i just had an epiphany whilst posting on the dear t thread. why my attachment to t is such an important part of my therapy. because the realization i had about myself today, that i said out loud to her, if i weren't so attached, would make me quit to not have to ever face her again. but i'm too attached. i can't quit. i will work with today's realization and tell her all about the results of said work when i go back in 2 weeks. or sooner if i call and beg. this attachment that i struggle so much with, is the reason why my therapy has been working and allowing me to make so many positive changes in my life.