I m coming close to death...I don't want to die....I am glad that I did not kill myself...
my life has been a life of depression and unhappiness...but there were some good times between breakdowns...but the breakdowns were absolute hell holes....I regret trying to fight so hard to fight my depression and fear....I should have just gone with it....my breakdowns had a life of their own...I tried to hide my misery from others...that was a big mistake for me....I was so ashamed and afraid that people would stay away from me if I wasn't normal acting..