I don't know...it still seems wrong to be friends with someone I'm attracted to or could be attracted to. Another problem is that I'll either not be comfortable making conversation with someone or I won't know what to say. Even if I find someone I'm comfortable with and can actually have a conversation with (that's rare) that I have no attraction to, then what? Even going for coffee with someone in the past has resulted in them using me to do their homework for them. I get that I'm supposed to do something with them, but what? I'm more comfortable in small groups or one on one (which rules out friendships with guys) and I'm not sure what we're supposed to do to hang out.

I've also noticed that if I'm with my partner, someone talking to us will talk to him and completely ignore me. I'm not that great at reading body language, but if I'm reading it right, their body language suggests that I absolutely don't exist. Maybe if they're done talking to him they may acknowledge me. I can't leave either or it will upset him. I wish I could though as it's uncomfortable and it feels like I'm eavesdropping. So I don't know what that's about...is it just because I'm female and other men will just think of me as my partner's accessory instead of an actual person? If we weren't together would I be considered a real person?