I thought the depression was lifting already, today it was worse again. I cannot think of anything that i would like to do except for sleeping. Sunday i have to go back home and that is alright as i dont care much. I just keep thinking that it will never get better because in my case there are so many trauma issues beyond the depression that my pain seems like a hole without a bottom. I am so tired of all this. Even though i know i would never commit suicide i sometimes just wish i could fall asleep and never wake up anymore. Sorry for the negative vibes, but that is what i feel at the Moment.