I'm still working on my routines, feeling a bit indifferent as if it doesn't matter if I become better or not, while I on the other hand are frightened that I will not be able to write a reasonable schedule this day for to morrow.

I am writing this now, because I hope that writing this down here, will be my push to start writing one.

I have already made ready my registration sheets for the next days. It helps me to keep track of necessary "ingredients" in my recovery plan, like eating, resting and other activities.

I hope that you don't find me strange, but sitting here and at the one hand don't care and on the other hand be frightened to not manage, as I did just a moment ago, was not good, but starting to write about it calmed me down, - enough to make me believe that I will be able to make the plan now and follow it tomorrow!



Well, now the list for the first hours of the day is made. Now I can try to fall asleep with good conscience .....

Good night! (I'll take an early night).