I can recall only 2 episodes in my life that could be categorized as hypomania. The first one was preceded by a deep depression and segued into another deep depression. AND, it precipitated actions that ruined my life for awhile. But that was some years ago.

I think I may have been experiencing the mania at the same time as the depression. I lost interest in everything else. I neglected my responsibilities and focused on only that that interested me.

The most recent episode was striking because it felt so good. I had emerged from a mild depression and was on fire for about 3 weeks. I was supremely motivated, very focused, didn't need much sleep or food (very unusual for me). I loved it. I felt I was finally on track with my life. Finally, I thought, I had turned a corner. I was obsessed with a project I was involved in.

Then last week, I crashed. Not severely. But I could no longer attend to the projects that so interested me before. I became listless and somber. It hurt so much the sense of emptiness and loneliness.

I guess I'm not worried about having hypomania. In my case, I enjoyed the feeling of exuberant self confidence, focused attention, and enhanced productivity. I like that. And I'd be pleased if it returned, if I could keep myself from becoming unbalanced.

So, it's probably not problematic experiencing the hypomania and so treating the depression will be more important, right?