Some weeks ago this former classmate sended me a message on Facebook, he wanted to hang out with me. This was a very strange move, since we are not much more that aquitances. I strugled without knowing what to do and what to say. When he confronted me about me not giving him a proper answear (He told me he just wanted to know me better and be my friend) things became strange and without giving much I had to explain to him I am a litle bit anxious (I am very anxious in fact) and that I am not used to get out. The cliche it's me not you would have been perfect and nonetheless true!
So, me, the social anxiety girl, the schizoid and depressed one found myself agreeing to hang out in a one one situatuation. It is enough of a scary situation that has everything to fail, but it's not all.
I live with my sister, so if I got out I would have to tell her who I was going to met and this seems an even harder task. I just don't know how to tell her and how to explain it to her, she would have a lot of question I don't want and I don't know how to answear (i don't have any friend... I only get out with her, I avoid to get out with colleagues when I am invited).
He has reached many times since, he even said if I everything need/want a friend he would be mine. I just don't know how to deal with this, how much should I tell him about my disease... How much unnormal does he think I am ...what can he understand and what Will he find strange. Most of what I am is determined by my disease and there is no way someone could get to know me better without knowing it... Like... (What are your hobbies? I don't have any... Why? Let me explain to you how I feel...)
But I could really use a friend sometimes... What am I getting into. (By the way, from what I know from him he is a good person).