I had been living apart from her for a long time, but eventually, I had nowhere to go but back with her. I no longer have anybody else. My mother and I always had a complicated relationship. She has a very hard time handling my emotions, but she's been there for me in other ways. I wish I was more independent, and I don't want BP to stop me. I feel as soon as I make progress, I fall all over again and have a hard time picking myself up.